the past few weeks since Cam's employment change have been a bit scary
I am very used to Cam being the one who handles things like this in stride.
There is not much that can "ruffle his feathers"
He tends to be the one who says things like
"it will all work out"
"it is all part of God's plan"
"don't worry momma"
all sorts of things I know are true, but don't really want to hear
Well...that is not the case this time.
Cam is really struggling with this situation
and has become a bit down in the dumps...or melancholy as he put it
I'll admit that I don't like this one bit
if he is melancholy...that means I have to be the one giving the pep talks
I am not very good at pep talks
truth be told...when I encounter a hill in life
I *end up* being glad that I had Cam, and his words of wisdom to pull me out of my frump
I find it hard to be the de-frumper
I find it very hard to see him be in such a frump
it is difficult because he is out of town all week
it is very hard to gage his mood over the phone
and...truth be told...aside from the "go-to" phrases,
I have not found anything that has been able to
make much of a dent in his melancholy mood,
He is so down that not even talk of fishing seems
to improve his frump.
So...I will keep reminding him of what we know is true,
God is in this, even when it is hard to see Him, He
knows the plans that He has for our future.
He is walking up this hill with me and Mr. Melancholy,
and He hasn't abandoned us on any hills we've encountered
in the past.
I'm sure glad that all hills have a top...and the view from the
top is almost always grand!!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
well it's news...but good news???
Tonight my husband dropped a big bomb on me...
He is out of town, I called to talk to him and
He said "do you want the good news...or the really good news"
Since this was a win-win situation...I went for the good news first.
The "good" news was that he no longer works for Kerkstra Precast.
*to me this did not sound like very good news at all*
then the "really good" new was that he now works for a company called G2.
*I was still thinking...where is the good news.*
my blood pressure went straight through the roof...I think my heart was racing
I know that I felt a little nauseated...
But...I was thankful that he.still.has.a.job!!
rewind...I remember last Friday Cam came home, and was in a very not good mood.
He said "I need a new job".
I prayed for him that night, and every night since.
I prayed that God would lead him where he should go,
that the right door would be open,
and...now he has a new job.
Well...technically he will be doing the same thing, with the same co-workers...just with new bosses...and under a different name.
So...this may be one of those..."be careful what you pray for" sort of things?
or...it may be one of those..."aren't you glad you prayed" sort of things?
it remains to be seen!!
Cam really seems to have a good feeling about this situation.
I seem to have a "I.just.got.socked.in.the.gut" sort of feeling about this situation.
I was not aware that a company could sell its employees.
I guess...he had a choice to go or to quit.
He decided to see what they*G2* have to offer.
He says that they seem to be very level headed and fair people.
I am praying that they are.
I have really struggled lately with God throwing me curve balls.
Seriously...just when I think I have things figured out
*or rather when I come to terms with how things are*
He comes right up behind me,
knocks my feet out from under me,
and I swear...He laughs...just a little.
He likes to do this to me
I should not be at all surprised
He knows that I like to have things "figured out"
and that sometimes...foolishly
I leave Him out of the figuring.
So...that is where I am at.
I am trying very hard to trust that
He knows the plans He has for my family...
Please pray for us or rather with us =]
This is a bit scary...
and I feel a bit throw-upie!
*I don't think I will sleep tonight because my blood pressure
has been elevated for about 3 hours*
He is out of town, I called to talk to him and
He said "do you want the good news...or the really good news"
Since this was a win-win situation...I went for the good news first.
The "good" news was that he no longer works for Kerkstra Precast.
*to me this did not sound like very good news at all*
then the "really good" new was that he now works for a company called G2.
*I was still thinking...where is the good news.*
my blood pressure went straight through the roof...I think my heart was racing
I know that I felt a little nauseated...
But...I was thankful that he.still.has.a.job!!
rewind...I remember last Friday Cam came home, and was in a very not good mood.
He said "I need a new job".
I prayed for him that night, and every night since.
I prayed that God would lead him where he should go,
that the right door would be open,
and...now he has a new job.
Well...technically he will be doing the same thing, with the same co-workers...just with new bosses...and under a different name.
So...this may be one of those..."be careful what you pray for" sort of things?
or...it may be one of those..."aren't you glad you prayed" sort of things?
it remains to be seen!!
Cam really seems to have a good feeling about this situation.
I seem to have a "I.just.got.socked.in.the.gut" sort of feeling about this situation.
I was not aware that a company could sell its employees.
I guess...he had a choice to go or to quit.
He decided to see what they*G2* have to offer.
He says that they seem to be very level headed and fair people.
I am praying that they are.
I have really struggled lately with God throwing me curve balls.
Seriously...just when I think I have things figured out
*or rather when I come to terms with how things are*
He comes right up behind me,
knocks my feet out from under me,
and I swear...He laughs...just a little.
He likes to do this to me
I should not be at all surprised
He knows that I like to have things "figured out"
and that sometimes...foolishly
I leave Him out of the figuring.
So...that is where I am at.
I am trying very hard to trust that
He knows the plans He has for my family...
Please pray for us or rather with us =]
This is a bit scary...
and I feel a bit throw-upie!
*I don't think I will sleep tonight because my blood pressure
has been elevated for about 3 hours*
Thursday, May 6, 2010
L.O.V.E
I LOVE that my mom and dad own greenhouses
and
I LOVE that for many years I was able to work there in the springtime
and
I LOVE that my girls get to work there now
and
I LOVE that you can't really go to the greenhouses without smelling "earthy" when you leave =]
and
I LOVE that when I go there, and smell the "earthiness" it brings back MANY wonderful memories
and
I LOVE that I am not able to walk through the greenhouses without "cleaning" the plants
and
I LOVE that it is, for the most part, a family business, so no matter when I stop there, it is filled with people I love
and
I LOVE that during the busy shipping season I get to bring dinner over to my parents *it's kind of payback for all the wonderful things they do for me*
and
I LOVE that having parents with a greenhouse means pretty flower for the yard/garden
Did I mention that I LOVE it?
and
I LOVE that for many years I was able to work there in the springtime
and
I LOVE that my girls get to work there now
and
I LOVE that you can't really go to the greenhouses without smelling "earthy" when you leave =]
and
I LOVE that when I go there, and smell the "earthiness" it brings back MANY wonderful memories
and
I LOVE that I am not able to walk through the greenhouses without "cleaning" the plants
and
I LOVE that it is, for the most part, a family business, so no matter when I stop there, it is filled with people I love
and
I LOVE that during the busy shipping season I get to bring dinner over to my parents *it's kind of payback for all the wonderful things they do for me*
and
I LOVE that having parents with a greenhouse means pretty flower for the yard/garden
Did I mention that I LOVE it?
Monday, April 26, 2010
what do you get when you add...
a day off of work + a 3rd grade field trip + a museum in downtown Grand Rapids???
You get a whole lot of fun...that's what!!!
I had the privilage of being able to get off of work to spend the day with Haidyn and her class in and around the Grand Rapids Public Museum today.
It was a beautiful day for it...the sun was shining the whole time *which was a blessing after the weekend we had*
Her class has been learning about Michigan history, specifically about the Native American's that lived in this area many years ago...and about the importance of the Grand River to their life here!
We started out learning about the Native American people, we listen to a Native American version of Cinderella, and we ended with a "Riverwalk" through parts of Grand Rapids.
It was a wonderful day...I am so glad I was able to go =]
You get a whole lot of fun...that's what!!!
I had the privilage of being able to get off of work to spend the day with Haidyn and her class in and around the Grand Rapids Public Museum today.
It was a beautiful day for it...the sun was shining the whole time *which was a blessing after the weekend we had*
Her class has been learning about Michigan history, specifically about the Native American's that lived in this area many years ago...and about the importance of the Grand River to their life here!
We started out learning about the Native American people, we listen to a Native American version of Cinderella, and we ended with a "Riverwalk" through parts of Grand Rapids.
It was a wonderful day...I am so glad I was able to go =]
kitchen floor...
this was my Christmas present last year...
no more gastly blue carpet in my kitchen...
although the gastly blue, was a HUGE improvement,
over the 70's gold and green carpet we found
hiding out under there...
But...
But...
after a lot of removal, repair and prep time...
and with the help of my super talented
*and hot* husband...
I now have this wonderful floor to come home to every day!!
*and hot* husband...
I now have this wonderful floor to come home to every day!!
*this project has been done for a long time...I just
hadn't yet gotten around to getting pictures of it to post*
Friday, April 23, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
leaping and waiting
I sit here looking in the face of something that I have wanted so bad, for so long.
It is the thing that I set out to accomplish years ago.
I said this very "thing" out loud...and I meant it,
and I believed that someday it would be so.
But...now that I find it litterally with in my reach...
I am second guessing myself,
rethinking that belief in my dream,
maybe there is a different plan,
maybe I should just leave well enough alone,
not mess with a good thing...
but...I know this thing will be a better situation for me,
for my family,
I know that it makes all the sense in the world...
but...I know that it is not up to me,
I am who I am,
I have the skills He has given me,
and..,it is not up to them,
they might think it is...
but...in the end...
it is up to the One who has known the plan for 33 years,
it is hard to resign my hopes and fears,
to just leap,
to just have faith,
to just know that what is meant to be will be,
to just give it to God,
and just wait...patiently
but...that is where I am...
waiting...
waiting for Him to show me my path!
It is the thing that I set out to accomplish years ago.
I said this very "thing" out loud...and I meant it,
and I believed that someday it would be so.
But...now that I find it litterally with in my reach...
I am second guessing myself,
rethinking that belief in my dream,
maybe there is a different plan,
maybe I should just leave well enough alone,
not mess with a good thing...
but...I know this thing will be a better situation for me,
for my family,
I know that it makes all the sense in the world...
but...I know that it is not up to me,
I am who I am,
I have the skills He has given me,
and..,it is not up to them,
they might think it is...
but...in the end...
it is up to the One who has known the plan for 33 years,
it is hard to resign my hopes and fears,
to just leap,
to just have faith,
to just know that what is meant to be will be,
to just give it to God,
and just wait...patiently
but...that is where I am...
waiting...
waiting for Him to show me my path!
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